Whisper: knowing

I know its over. And im kinda glad it is, coz i wont be angry or annoyed.
But whenever once in a while when i have nothin to do or somethin, i begin to think about what had happened, and what i couldve said and stuff during this argument. I guess everyone does that, after an argument they regret not coming with smarter stuff to say or backups .

But what bugs me the most, is how others will only see his side of the story and not mine. People will only see what i've done wrong and not what he did in the first place. The "behind the scenes".
It bugs me to not be able to show people his real personality. I think i tried, but no one will listen especially after this incident. My teacher told me and others that everyone will view things differently. Like how say this girl smokes and do drugs and stuff and u'd think she's bad and u dont want to have any relationships with her. However, a nother person would go out with her, because they see her different, like attractive or simpyl because shes nice to them.

Its hard to hold myself back. I know it's stupid if i speak out. But it's like morals? no philosophy? iono
I learnt that, truly those who speaks the most are stupid. And others wont see the fault of others, cept yours when u do somethin wrong. This is mostly because, ur always nice and have this "nice" image then all of a sudden u do something bad, but not actually bad bad when u compare it to others. And others start to gang up on u because ur seen as a bitch. do u get it?
to put it more simply here is a scenario:

This girl, whenever people ask her to help she says okay yes.
Then one day this person ask her for help and she decides to say no.
That person begins to dislikes her and tell her off saying she's selfish and mean etc.

Here, people only see the bad side rather than the good side. even if the bad side is only 1/10 of the girl's real personality. If  u always play the nice guy and then u decide to play bad, people see u as an ass. However, if u have been playin the bad guy for a long period and u do somethin nice, people will say "wow, u're actually very nice".

get it?

i told my mum. she said tat when someone has a bad personality, it doesnt matter how hard they try to cover it or maintain it. One day, others will see that bad side. Definitely.