never

Until about 3 years ago, i've never cried or have the urge to cry when i see the sad scenes of a movie or book

until about 3 years ago, ive never ever thought about suicide or tried anything suicidal

until about 3 years ago, ive never been so sad..my eyes frown more than they smile

until about 3 years ago, i've never been so complicated, so scared of any lovey dovey relationships

until about 3 years ago, i have never been caught in sorrow's grasp so easily ...and so easily fall into depression..never have i had contact with depression until about 3 years ago..

what i experienced 3 years ago was stupid, though i may or may not regret it, it has changed my life, my personality, my view about certain things forever...it made me more sad, more pessimistic than ever..


if i could go back in time, i dont want to experience it so early as i had...i rather wait and enjoy being the youthful happy-go-lucky feeling everyday